Tuesday, May 19, 2009

To do list

I am a feminist, it's almost a given when you see me.
But like seriously what on earth does that really mean,
Am I supposed to continue dead protests and kiss in's?

Yes a documentary
Yes a tour of the museum
Yes this is living it up.

I'm pretty much useless except to kill a few stones with a bird and such on occasion.
I entertain only 1/3rd of the time too.
Spyrographs are more enriching.

And my coffee should be ready.


and iron, bcomplex, flowers

Thursday, May 14, 2009

I'm so sick

I really loved him and this is why we can't spend time together.
I wish we didn't act like 4 year olds when we flirt, and I really wish we didn't flirt.
I want to say you started it. You always do actually.
I get anxious, and I hate being anxious because I get so sick to my stomach.
I cry and cry and cry and feel like I'm going to blow up.

And of course now things fall back to shit because I thought, I THOUGHT this was going to be the month where my life turned around. I hate everyone.

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Are you sure?

So cold but finally not damp,
not digging deep in my bones
and turning me weak.
Combustion and pressure
I really do have to work on decreasing my anxiety.
Raw throat and dried eyes,
odd enough combination.

I feel fine

It's and histoire de family. And I wont rest until I forget about it

Friday, May 8, 2009

Machiavelli

As Nicolo said, it is best to be what is in your control, otherwise the power is lost. So it is better to be feared than loved because love is far out of control and as great as it is, it's vapid. So Nicolo, I getcha. I really do.
Reality shows a roaring thunderous temperment though, so what I know isn't in practice because, as you know Nicolo, we are but human, I am no Prince. It's early so I'll say a new day is dawning, but it's the sun has his head still burried in clouds.
I'm a giant cliché. Two eyes, two ears, and one hell of a mouth. Relying on logic, going blind and being battered emotionally, logic hasn't really worked just yet. "I'm sad and I'm lonely and I never had a pony.
Ti voglio molto bene, Nicolo. IO STARE ATTENTO. Non stare bene. Desidero divertimi.
I really wish this made sense.

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

Shapes and smoke signals

Listening to ideological tunes
Sharing features and hense heritage
Feeling passive
And of course offensive.
"Do you like my thighs"
Interested only in interesting things,
But of course,
Not everything can be.
Animated tunes glistening like beads of perspiration.
Just animations,
Simple figments of altered realities.
Or was it realistic reality in real time?
An analysis of life by living
Or analysing dying
Whichever tune fits.